<body> Lost In Beauty-
...she's Beautiful

.name; alycia.
.age; twenty-two.
.resides; in norwich, ct.
.status; single.
.occupation; full-time student.
.education; three rivers community college.

...she is

a daughter
a cousin
a lover
a roommate
a true friend
& a best friend

...other beautiful souls

♥ MEAGAN ♥

...Dreams

.see a shooting star.
.get my masters degree.
.travel around the world.
.be emotionally stable.
.build my own house.
.be debt free.
.make a difference in lives.
.be a loving wife & mother.

...TALK OF LOVE





...beautiful melodies

.the stars we put in place.
.the dreams we didn't waste.
.the sorrows we embraced.
.the world belonged to you and me.
.the oceans that we crossed.
.the innocence we lost.
.the hurting at the end.
.i'd go there again.
.cause it was beautiful.
.it was beautiful.
- amy grant.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007


Its been a couple days since I last posted and not a damn has happened. I relaxed the entire sunday and unfortunately, I couldnt get out of that mode so I relaxed some more on monday.

I was supposed to go and do some errands on monday but I was too lazy to even get out of bed. I think my insomnia is slowly coming back and I am not too happy about that.

Hmm, random thoughts: I want to lose 15 pounds. I was looking through my pictures from when I was in high school and I didnt realize that I looked seemingly thin. At 145, I looked like I was 125. I know I weight 167 but people would have never guessed because I look 145. I want to go to the gym but I need some butt kicking first or I am never going to go. I need to start eating a bit more as well. I would just have one big meal and that's it for the day.

Another random thought I had yesterday: I wish I kept the baby. I was pregnant two winters ago and I WAS going to keep the baby. Up until me and my aunt did not get along and I realized I couldn't have the baby living under that household. (no offense to anybody -- but I am sure Meagan understands my point of view.) I felt a bit suffocated and trapped in the house. Having my cousins around every day was the highlight of my stay! I know my aunt loves me and vice versa but I hate how she points out everything that sets me apart from her daughters. I remember the last time we got together, I was so thrilled that Amaya was wearing some black eyeliner! I never thought my aunt would allow that and then I was like, "hey, shes finally wearing eyeliners." I was shot down. "So? Look at you, you're worse, you have face makeup, blush, and everything else and she just has an eyeliner." My dad was standing beside me and saw the whole thing. I just looked at her and I was READY to BITCH but I just bit my tongue and smiled and looked away.

Why can't my own family look at the GOOD things i have done instead of the bad things i have done? Everybody is allowed to make mistakes in life. Thats the only way they can grow!

Meagan and I feel like the outcasts of the family. I lead a different lifestyle from them and Meagan, I quite don't see what the heck is wrong with them! She is a hard worker and does nothing but keeps her things to herself. As far as I am concerned, she is mature than the rest of them!

I can't believe I am lashing out like this. I'm just a bit pissed...holidays are coming and I KNOW I'd never have the family I dream of....not unless I create my own.

Good news: Milinda is back working at 2nd shift!

Oy, I better end this depressing post.

xx

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